Monday, February 16, 2004 |
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the punch list changes but no satisfaction I get no satisfaction from the remodel. When one thing is fixed we find something else, possibly just created.
I have now accepted that I will be forever disappointed with this remodel. A tiny bit of it may be my own selection of materials. But mostly it is the things the workers have visited on me that can't be fixed to my satisfaction, that will always taunt me. "You spent a lot of money and this is the best you could get," is what these things will say. Lots of things in life are like that. Or not. Things will get finished and we will settle into the space and love it and overlook things that maybe, just maybe the person who buys this house will also overlook. (Or maybe they will just be looking at the raw space and thinking, "This is a nice size, we can gut it." It's not a feeling that pumps up my mood. Things break, fail, get damaged. Just today the old washing machine that conveyed with Dad's house almost four years ago had to be replaced. I was surprised it lasted this long. That doesn't bother me. What does bother me is buying something 'brand new' that is damaged already. That happens often enough but I'd like the newness to last long enough to use the thing once. Meanwhile, sleeping on the pull-out couch for almost four months, I'm not a happy camper. When I occupy this room, it will already seem far from perfect. |
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snow can make things look pretty but some things can't be covered up (this was Saturday's landscape for about five minutes)
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JUST TYPING You shouldn't
look for perfection.
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lunch snacks
dinner small bowl salad greens,
carrots, onions, cheese, dressing Today I
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I was off to the club before eight-thirty. We were late getting in the water for our water aerobics and it was a bit disorganized because we didn't have an instructor and had to find someone to get the cover off and such. I showered off after and did some time on the exercise bike. Back home there were issues of the remodel. Have I mentioned how nervous the remodel is making me? I also dealt with my dad needing a new washing machine at his house. The pump leaks. The handyman came over to talk about it and I gave him money to go buy one and put it in. In the evening I was feeling pretty good but the more I look at the remodel the more upset I get and finally I get up and read newspapers and try to doze in the chair, watching some Merchant Ivory type movie, sleepless.
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Newspapers. I have
been drawn into some political reporting lately. Normally I just can't
get started with politics. Which may seem silly since I'm all about reading
about the politics during WWII. I'm a terrible citizen because I hate
all parties equally. Or maybe that makes me a good citizen but I doubt
it. The Conquerers by Michael Beschloss. Voices of D-Day. ed. Ronald Drez. Forgot to take it to the gym today, though, so I read old abandoned magazines there. Started watching a DVD course on WWII.
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