The Visible Woman...December 17, 2003

No way I'm going to take my sniffles to an outdoor pool for water aerobics. Dad calls at seven to say he isn't going either. (The temp and wind chill are low.)

Should I just stay home and let the chaos come to me? Yes. A parade of visitors does come: a city inspector, the contractor, my dad, the plumber and an assistant, the HVAC sub-contractor, a UPS delivery man, the closet lady, the mailman. Then the contractor is back threatening the reappearance of other subs. But the day meanders on and no more people arrive.

How rarely do I stay home all day? Pretty rarely. That combined with the vagueness that a cold gives you makes the day seem strange.

so...see that's where the tub goes	stay at home and let it come to me What if I stayed at home all day and let the chaos come to me? No way I'm going to take my sniffles to an outdoor pool for water aerobics. Dad calls at seven to say he isn't going either. (The temp and wind chill are low.) Should I just stay home and let the chaos come to me? Yes. A parade of visitors does come: a city inspector, the contractor, my dad, the plumber and an assistant, the HVAC sub-contractor, a UPS delivery man, the closet lady, the mailman. Then the contractor is back threatening the reappearance of other subs. But the day meanders on and no more people arrive. How rarely do I stay home all day? Pretty rarely. That combined with the vagueness that a cold gives you makes the day seem strange.
JUST TYPING Sitting here and letting the providers come to me. I feel out-of-control. Even though they say things about "lots of choices" and "many things you can do." Binding decisions are made. Life is a lot of decisions that can't really be reversed.
		Food Diary. *breakfast* four slices of turkey bacon two pieces toast with melted cheese *lunch* nothing *snacks* Echinecea tea with teaspoon of sugar ten or eleven pieces of fruit pectin candy (at different times throughout the day...when this two pound box is gone I'll be both glad and sad) *dinner* rotisserie chicken on salad greens with bleu cheese dressing Today I - ate a lot for breakfast but then wasn't hungry later for lunch.
		Time flies.... I stayed in bed until 8:15! I sat around reading the newspapers and visiting with my dad because he was hiding from his maid. I made decisions and listened to things that had to be done with the remodel and ordered more incidental furniture on-line. You can sure spend money without leaving the house these days.

		Reading. As Eagles Screamed Old newspapers
		nada
		Exercise None.
	. .	I am not in a bad mood even though I'm either sick or having allergies. I think this is because I'm not that sick (I don't feel weak or anything...I just have a drippy nose and occasionally a strong sneeze or a weak cough). And, because I have really done everything for the holidays except wrap presents and make some vegies for Christmas dinner, I'm not stressing about that. I'm just stressing about the remodel and somehow I have convinced myself that it will be OK.
	It's a Tangled Web we weave...these days of our lives.	One year ago "Now that he's home I'll have new worries. I worry about him being there alone and about him getting lonely and such. But I don't have to worry about getting the mail and watering the plants. " Two years ago "I have peeled off the bloody gauze and the tape. The wound has closed neatly and looks like nothing much. Yeah. I'm a fast healer. ("Some people are fast healers," the nurse said. "You may not even need to put more strips on.")."