The Visible Woman...October 12, 2003

Stress is a killer. I know being out of work is stressful for some people. And maybe it was all in my attitude. Maybe if I'd found time to get to the gym for at least an hour a day and do other activities and still work maybe I could have felt better.

I didn't know how bad I felt really. I ached and was stiff. I got dog tired. I was too fat. I ate the wrong things. I didn't have enough energy.

Maybe I if I'd taken a more zen approach and still worked I could have felt better.

I don't know why it took quitting or if quitting was necessary. But I'm sure glad I found my way to this place.

Now...where do I go from here?

Sunday, October 12, 2003

A Journal from Austin, Texas. A Project of LBFFP Stealth Publishing.
food	reading	writing	time	exercise	health and mood

. Some of the stuff that had to be moved	stress kills I feel like years have been added to my life by quitting my job. Stress is a killer. I know being out of work is stressful for some people. And maybe it was all in my attitude. Maybe if I'd found time to get to the gym for at least an hour a day and do other activities and still work maybe I could have felt better. I didn't know how bad I felt really. I ached and was stiff. I got dog tired. I was too fat. I ate the wrong things. I didn't have enough energy. Maybe I if I'd taken a more zen approach and still worked I could have felt better. I don't know why it took quitting or if quitting was necessary. But I'm sure glad I found my way to this place. Now...where do I go from here?
JUST TYPING Stress. Kills. Why is work stress? Only some work? But without money... being without work stresses. The secret is to deal with what is to be dealt with without stress. It took quitting. For me. But maybe. It wasn't about the job.
		Food Diary. *breakfast* plate of migas which, as good Texicans know, is scrambled eggs with tomato, cheese, onions, crushed tortilla chips topped with salsa *lunch* baked potato with shredded cheese, onions, nonfat yogurt and broccoli *snack*s a couple of Fritos (around lunch) cup of green tea with lemon and two teaspoons of sugar (late at night) dinner [La Madeleine] spinach and shrimp crepe with a cream sauce and two glasses of Merlot I considered having a snack when we got home from the two movies but I wasn't really hungry and the green tea with sugar hit the spot.
		Time flies.... Up, coffee, breakfast, papers e-mail and...it's 10AM. I swear I was up before 7:30. Somehow I didn't get back from the gym until after noon. Showered up and we went to see a couple of AFF movies. We saw Broadway: The Golden Age which was fantastic although the theater had trouble projecting it for some reason (newly re-opened Arbor). We ate something and saw I am David which was pretty interesting and was a sort of Merchant Ivory meets after school movie. The writer/director was there for both. That's always neat. So...we spent a lot of time at the movies, I guess.

		Reading. Finished D-Day and the Invastion of Normandy by Anthony Kemp. There is a section with stills from some famous movies about the invasion at the end which made me think I should watch some of them (again for some). There is also a list of museums and cemeteries and I'm wondering which German one we went to in 1999. I started a new book. It is a little (small format approximately 150pp) book I got at a book outlet store that opened over in Gateway. Living to Tell the Tale by Jane Taylor McDonnell is a guide to writing memoirs.
		I have been having lots of ideas about writing. Yeah, I know. So what?
		Exercise thirty minutes on recumbent bike. My new workout for back and legs and biceps. (I don't feel comfortable with this yet.) Lots of abs and lower back and stretches thirty minutes on recumbent bike.
	.	113/72 77 I feel fine really although my digestion was slightly strange and I was a little blah.